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Apr. 15th, 2009 | 11:54 am
I am feeling....: sadsad

 ok.  well....i am finally posting.  yea i realized that its been like almost 3 months since i last posted.  and that sucks.  i mean i have been doing a lot of stuff but i guess i jsut never find the time or the need to update sometimes.  but last night gave me a reason to update and to kinda vent about something that was brought to my attention.

last night im at work and eric texts me saying to let him know when i get off work.  which was weird cuz he never does that.  I mean i dont ever see the guy during the week cuz all he does is work.  i only see him on friday and sat and sometimes sunday.  and like yea at first it sucked but i have gotten used to it over the months and well we have adjusted fine. 

some background is that he works for a company called Foxxcon and its in fullerton.  and his job pretty much sucks.  hes always working hellish hours.  like going in at 930 and leaving the office at around 9 at night.  and hes not getting paid hourly hes getting paid salary.  so all those hours prettty much for nothing.  cuz hes also not getting paid too well but i mena u know as his first job he took it.  Foxxcon makes electronic equipment.....like xboxs, wii's and what not.  they ahve different plants all over the world.  and its a taiwanese based company as well.  anyways the plant in fullerton makes Apple products.  and well he is in charge of making sure the production goes smoothly.  he doesnt actually make them but he oversees that they are making the quota of products a day and waht not.  well there are two people that do his job.  him and another chick.  so they split their shifts most of the time and when shes away he has to cover for her which is why he works really hellish hours lately.  

so getting to the real point of my post.  he wants to see me after work cuz he has something to tell me.  and that was that his company is moving to dallas.  they are moving everyone from fullerton over there.  and well since he is one of two people that can do his job he needs to go over there and work and then help train other people.  cuz apparently this place is 4 times bigger then the plant here.  so he kinda knew all this was gonna happen but he was asked if he wanted to go and he said no.  well...he finds out yesterday that the other chick that does his job as well is quitting.  so that meansits just him and well hes pretty much forced to go to dallas now.  

so that leaves it with us.  he wanted to know waht i would think about the whole situation and of course i dont want him to go!!  and well he was worried with waht i would say cuz i mean.....we've done long distance before but when he came back for good i had mentioned that i dont know if i could handle that again.  it was really tough for me!  especially since it was the beginning of our relationship as well.  so he remembered me saying that i wouldnt do long distance again so he wanted to ask me how i felt and what i would do.  and well....point is...i dont want to break up with him!  i mean i love him and i just really wish he wouldnt go.  and well he told me that his intentions werent to break up with me either just because he was leaving and that he wanted to work out long distance again cuz we have already done it before.

so i decided that i would rather do long distance again rather then breaking up with him.  cuz i even asked if waht he wanted was a break then?  and he didnt want that.  he said that if we take a break then would i really be coming back to him.  and well....u never know.  i have no intentions of meeting other people or hooking up with anyone else so yea i dont want a break either.  so then he tells me that hes leaving to dallas in 3 weeks!!!  im like whoa wait....3 weeks!!  i cant believe it.  

the only good thing is that its not permanent.  he said he would be out there for a minimum of 6 months to a max of a year cuz thats waht he signed for in his contract.  so thats one thing thats making me feel better about the whole situation.  we have been a part for over a year already im sure we cna do it again.  he says he plans on visiting at least once a month hoping that his job isnt gonna give him too much of a workload.  so i can only hope that he really does come down once a month.  also i guess i cna always go visit him out there as well.  it could be a new experience.  havent been to texas. haha.  

so yea.  that leaves me with 3 weeks now with him and then who knwos when ill see him next.  waht gets me the most is that he wont be here for my birthday.....or even our anniversary!!  it will be 3 years this july 10th.  and i cant believe i wont even be able to see him on that day.  thats kinda what hurts the most.  gosh i relaly hate this situation.  after having him here for over a year i dont know how im gonna adjust.  it was always..the weekend with him.  or some form of it.  i mena i cant even jusr randomly call him and say hey lets go do this.  or on sat nights just hang out or go to the movies.  gah!!!  im really sad.  i mean...sat nights were our nights.  we had a routine,  i worked in the morning then as soon as i got out i called him and we figured out waht we should go do at night.  im not liking this one bit but hey i cant be selfish!!  thats the mean thing.  i need to be supportive cuz hes only taking this because there are NO jobs out there right now.  i mean the economy sucks and he can only hope that in  ayear from now when he comes back that there are more job opportunities out there.  i dunno.  i think my main fear is him never coming back.  he siad its only for a year but waht if they offer him something else while hes there....something that pays more and there still being no job opportunities here???  

well...i guess ive said all that i needed to say and if anyone actually read all of this then thanks!!  but yea i dont expect anyone to read it cuz its super long.  but i guess as of right now i can only spend wahtever time i ahve left and wish for the best with him.  its not gonna truly hit me until he leaves on may 6th.  gosh thats too soon!!  we'll just have to wait and see how things pan out then.  =(

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Jan. 20th, 2009 | 04:43 pm

well today i did absolutely nothing!  haha.  but i was stuck watching all networks and watching our new president get sworn in!!  haha man this is such a magical day.  everything ws perfect.  Obama really kicks ass and im so glad to call him our president.  his wife is wonderful and his daughters are too adorable!  haha im really proud right now.  and i had planned to pretty much do nothing but watch tv.  I even noticed that plenty of schools needed subs......so weird.  and nobody was picking them up.  I felt kinda bad cuz there were like 6 schools that were listed and their start times were way past an hour or so and looks like no one picked them up.  i even had a high school call me and i was surprised cuz i never get phone calls.  but sorry....i wanted to be a part of this moment.  haha watch im gonna regret it since there is nothing posted now adn watch me not get anything for tomorrow .  oh wells. im still glad i was able to bum around and watch all the evnts on tv.

im a very proud american!  anywho......so other then that ive just been enjoying the last couple days off.  times like these make me think a bit.  some good and some bad.  anywho all is life i suppose.  but everything will be ok i guess.  alrighty well all i wanted to write about was my uneventful yet exciting day!  hehe now im just watching for the inaugural balls to start!  yay

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Jan. 15th, 2009 | 02:17 pm

so my dog ozzie turns 15 today.  wow 15 years old.  he is an old dog and has the old man coughing hack that he does but hes still a bit energentic.  haha.  anywho i remember getting him in 4th grade.  4th grade!!  wow.  15 years is alot of my life.  haha well anyways.  happy 15 years Ozzie!!   =)

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Jan. 14th, 2009 | 12:05 am

well...its def been a while huh?  haha well happy new year everyone!  even tho it was like 2 weeks ago..eh better late then never. 

anywho well not alot has happened lately.  ive just been lounging and working at the og and enjoying my time off.  well..i can recap a bit.  for christmas we spent it here at my house as usual and as usual we all had tons of fun. we all were drinking of course, beers for the guys vodka shots for everyone and wine for me!  hehe and then we played our annual white elephant game.  yay!  there were 37 of us playing.  haha wow thats a lot of mexicans in one room!  hehe anywyas i scored some nice wine glasses.  so thats cool.  and of course the night ended with me not remembering anything cuz i was pretty drunk!  hahah gotta love the drunk times with the family.  on christmas day we all went to church and ended up staying at home.  it was nice cuz it was kinda rainy and well....i was kinda sick.  haha but we watched the lakers win!  and well....pretty much did nothing.  haha gotta love lazy days.

anywho for new years i was able to get the day off and eric and i planned on going to hermosa with his friends and waht not.  the night was kinda crazy needless to say and i wont get into it but at midnight i was able to get my kiss with eric.  so all is well with the world.  hehe it was fun none the less.  on new years day i had to work so whatever.  i worked a massive load those last two weeks and well i was off for vacation for subbing so i gotta make some sort of monies.  hehe

now as for now ive just been chillen.  im subbing for long beach district and they only get two weeks vacation so they came back jan 5th.  now i knew i wasnt gonna be getting any positions open that first week cuz well all schools came back and the only teachers that are gonna be needing subs is if they really really are sick or somehting.  anywho so i didnt sub all week last week.  which was ok.  i just lounged and worked at og at night.  no worries.  now for this week.....its been kinda hard finding anything!  i look online and if i see something i click to look at the details and its already taken!  man people are fast on there.  so yes this week so far i havent sub yet.  and then i looked today and there is a note saying that there is a freeze on teachers professional development days and so that means in less need of subs.  so that sucks.  plus it also says that teachers are most likely gonna assign subs especially in elementary and well i just started subbing so no teachers know me yet!  so we'll see if i get anything this week.  i really hope i do!  usually what pops up is for middle school....and well im hesitant sometimes cuz those kids are scary!  hahah

so yea.  ive just been chillen.  haha enjoying my vacation and sleeping in. haha gotta be nice...sometimes.  but i need to get back into my groove of subbing cuz that one month where i subbed alot i really liked my paycheck.  haha well at least i stilll have og.  anywho i just gotta find stuff to entertain myself with now. hehe

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Dec. 10th, 2008 | 02:13 am
location: US, California, Los Angeles, Los Angeles, Seagrove Ave, 1411

Oh snap my iphone is wonderful! I am posting using my iPhone with an lj app. I have a new love haha thanks eric!

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Dec. 8th, 2008 | 11:40 am

so this weekend was amazing!!  I finally worked again at the og an it felt kinda weird cuz i hadnt been at work for a while.  hehe.  but friday night was kinda good so i cant complain and then i just went and hung out with eric afterwards.  On sat i worked in the morning and then we went to disneyland!!!   this was our first time going with the decorations up.  and eric got his pass that day.  so now we are annual pass holders!!  yay!  hehe.  but the thing is....the blackout dates start on the 20th til the end of the year and im going to new york this weekend so we might not be able to see the christmas stuff again...unless we go the first 4 days of jan which could be a possibility.  anywho...we didnt get there til about 730 almost 8 ish cuz there was a massive accident on the 91 that they had to close the freeway...apparently there was a double fatality accident.  pretty bad.  but yea we were stuck on the freeway for a good 45 mins.  no bueno.  anywyas the first thing we did was go to cali adventure to try the new toy story ride and let me say.....it is freaken awesome!!!!  i luv it soo much i could go to disneyland just to ride that ride a million times.  hahah.  and yes i beat eric!!!  too bad i didnt get any photo documentation.  haha but he vowed to kick my butt when we go again.  haha  so after that we saw the fireworks andw hat not and then we stayed til about midnihgt when the parked closed....so it was fun stuff but we were soo exhuasted when we got home we knocked out.

on sunday.......well....i got my christmas gift already from eric......an iphone!!!!!!!  lol.....i am soo excited about my new phone!  haha i wasnt really thinking about getting one but my contract was up this month and so eric decided to get me one.  yay!  i will be paying more a month but itll be worth it.  hehe.  but yea i just got it and im soo addicted to it.  i mena internet and eveything at my fingertips!  hehe so yea i got the 3g one but only the 8gb cuz well....i dont even hvae an ipod myself so not like im gonna be using the music portion quite often.  but yea im excited and thanks eric!!!!  i really love my boyfriend...he is the best ever. 

ok adn well other then that i now have to prepare for new york!! i looked at the forecast and well....the high is about 25 degrees!  yikes!!  haha but im gonna have lots of fun and ill be able to see the tree!!  yay.  hehe anywyas....i gotta go shopping now for boots and warm clothes!! 

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Dec. 3rd, 2008 | 12:54 am

you know...i look at my journal quite often...yet i dont feel an urge to update sometimes. haha.  but im bored now so im gonna do it.

so thanksgiving week was good!  so i found out that for the week of thanksgiving the olive garden was going to be closed.  not for the holidays and not for health concerns...which seems to be the reason why people think.  but we remodeled the kitchen.  like we literally gut the entire kitchen and got new ovens and tables and grills and stoves and the whole thing!  even knocked out some walls and waht not....and well og just couldnt be open for that amount of tiem.  they figure that the store only lost 4 days since we wouldve been closed on thanksgiving anywyas.  but anywho i still havent been back to work.  haha ive been enjoying my days off. i actually got kinda excited that i didnt have to work that week and well i had requested the weekend after thanksgiving off anywyas so it worked.  i go back to work on thurs.  so ill get to see the kitchen and everything. 

so that week was awesome.  it was erics 25th bday on the 25th!  hehe.  and well he didnt really do much on tues for his actual bday so i didnt get to see him =(  but we went out to dinner on wed and then clubbing was planned in hollywood at Opera/crimson for friday night.  oh man that was great times.  ill get to that later.  but tues was also my aunts bday!  so we went over and had alot of family together.  thats all she wanted was the family to get together.  so thats one reason why i didnt see eric on tues.   and then on wed morning i went to breakfast with some aunts and cuzins.  so good times indeed!!

as for thanksgiving i went to my aunts house in corona who i never really see and i saw cuzins that i havent really talked to in years....so it was def good times!   now onto friday for erics bday.  man o man.  that place was soo much fun.  there were soo many people.  and erics friends got bottle service and i swear we had the best table in the whole place!  it was like super vip.  so anyways the drinks were good and i had a couple shots here and there and having agood time and then all the alcohol just hit me.  well...that and i hadnt eatne since about 3 that day.  so yea thta was a bad combo.  also eric made me take a shot of whiskey which i dont normally drink!  and well....pretty much i dont remember the end of the night i threw up and got us kicked out.  haah well they kicked me out.  and yea the next morning filling me in on stories was just funny.  i swear i dont remember taking pics and everything.  but....i felt bad cuz it ws for erics bday and i got trashed!!   but eric is the best ever!!!  he took care of me and let me crash at his house and even washed my dress as i passed out on his bed.  hahha i havet he best bf ever.

haha so after that fun night i went to a thankgiving potluck on sat and i vowed not to drink cuz i as still feeling kidnda bleh.  i dditn really have a hang over so taht was good but was still kinda cautious. 

so yea that was my wonderful week!!  i really wish i could repeat it.  but anywho.....so for erics day i got him a gps cuz he really needs it!!  he always gets lost so i hope he enjoys it.  and well he already told me my christmas present but ill wait til later to tell everyone. hehe im kinda excited.  

but other then that....im going to New York next week!!!  im excited....ill get to see my sister and im going with mayra and it should be tons of fun!! i hope its kinda snowing.  i wanna feel the cold....hopefully not too much and see the christmas tree!!  thats the one thing i really wanna see.  hehe so i gotta go shopping now for coats and waht not.  cant wait!!

ok well...christmas is gonna come up fast.....but im gonna post again soon.....i really promise this time.  haha

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Nov. 11th, 2008 | 03:44 pm

ok so...ive been subbing alot lately.  which is good.  so the last time i wrote i wrote about how my first day of subbing was gonna be soon.  well that day came and let me say...it was prob my worst experience!!  haha i have to rove classrooms.  so i was in a third grade class first and they were all soo noisy and talkative.  and waht would get me upset was that the actual teacher was there....only they had these writing workshops and so a group of teachers would come to the classroom and some would teach a writing concept and then the others took notes....well when those teachers came in they were quiet...but for me??  no.  haha so then right after that i had to go to a 4th rgade classroom and that was much much worse!  they did not listen and were walking around and waht not.  ugh it was soo bad.  yea im never going to that school again unless its for kindergarten.  hahah.  so yea that was my first day experience.

after that i was a bit skeptical of subbing but then i realized i can be choosy at times and pick which schools i want so from then on out i have choosen wisely.  Ive subbed about 7 more times after that and they were real good.  hehe i guess i needed that first experience to learn from.  all the assignments have been pretty easy as well.  I even did a middle school for a history class on election day.  so that day was cool.  but they were very chatting.  i feel like i can be such a pushover and i hate having to yell....but i had to yell at some of the classes to quiet down.  also in middle school the students are taller then me!!  haha thats sad. 

but anyways irecently just finished a 3 day subbing in kinderarten and i loved it!!  it was in a bad ish neighborhood but my class was soo good!  just goes to show that the neighborhood doesnt matter its the kids.  anywho.....other then that today was  adya off since schools are closed and i already picked up a middle school math postion for friday.  i picked it up quick cuz since i have a subject matter authorization in math i get paid long term sub pay for that one day.  haha definitely looking for more of those.

other then subbing......ive been working at the og too!   ive been a busy person now.  some days i sub and then an hour later im off to serve tables.  but the money has been good.  im geting paid on friday for my subbing for the first time.  the one thing im gonna hate is getting paid once a month.  im used to geting paid weekly at og and then always having cash on me after  a shift.  hehe so im just gonna act like i dont have this sub job and once a month ill be like...whoa a good paycheck.  hehe.  

halloween came up and i went to hermosa.  we went to sangrias and that was alot of fun.  i always look forward to the weekends cuz i always end up doing something fun with eric.  i only get to see him friday and sat so of course i make the most of it.  i wish i could see him more sometimes...but ill take what i can get. 

other then that....i got my disneyland pass!!  so i should be going alot soon and i cant wait for the holidays!!  thanksgiving is already 3 weeks away!!  and then christmas then new years...ooh its gonna be good.  also im going to new york in december!  i hope it snows when im out there.  im gonna visit my sister and mayra is coming along too...so it should be good.

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Oct. 20th, 2008 | 02:43 pm

ok so.....I finally got all my paperwork done for Long Beach.  I am officially in the system and I can start subbing whenever I want.  So they have this system where I can check for any sub jobs online and so i looked and found one for wed for a 3rd grade classroom.  I got scared by thinking about subbing for some reason and i hesitated but then i clicked to accept it cuz if I dont get my first day over with then i never will!!  haha so my first subbing postition will be on wed for a 3rd grade classroom from 745 to 230.  eek man i havent been up that early in a while.  I dunno i guess im scared cuz I havent had a classroom to myself.  I always had my master teacher in the room or I got to know the ways of the classroom first before actually teaching.  so im real scared!  but.....i do enjoy the fact that Im actually gonna be teaching.  the only thing that im confused or worried about is not knowing what im teaching.  whenevr i taught lessons i prepared myself and well...i really wont know what ill be teaching until i get to the school.  so that kinda worries me especially since its not my clas and so used to have a problem with extra time.  I wont know aht to do if i have extra time.  aha.  well...im still nervous but i have to go through it soone ror later.  I know a month from now im gonna be like...oh wow i cant believe i was scared.  but we'll see how it goes.  wish me luck!

other then that...ive really been doing nothing but being a bum.  i sleep in everyday and i work at night.  and well work has been kinda slow cuz of the economy and what not but ive still been making pretty good money.  but the good thing is that I made my last car payment last month so thats extra money this month that i automatically save.  hehe so yea just gonna pay off some more bills now. 

also im going to disnyeland soon!  i think sudnay.....and then im gonna get a pass.  eric and i have been talking about getting a pass for a while and now with the decorations coming up and waht not we figured to get it this month.  so that should be fun!

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Sep. 22nd, 2008 | 03:38 pm
I am feeling....: crushedcrushed

ok well...last week i had two interviews.  First was for long beach.  and this was just a simple interview to get me into the district..so nothing for an actual position or anything.  but anyways i was real nervous but in the end the guy said that i did well adn that he would move me into the next pool of applicants where pretty much if any schools have openings they choose from this pool of applicants.  he also asked if i was interested in subbing and i said yes cuz i would like to start doing something ya know.  i mean i enjoy my over extended vacation but i would like to start doing something too.  anyways.....so that is good news.

now on friday i had an interview for a torrance middle school.  i would be teaching math there.  I thought the interview went well.  i was interviewed by the principal, vice principal, and two math teachers.  well i got a call this morning and didnt get the job =(    boo!!  haha i really wanted soemthing full time but i guess......this just wasnt meant for me.  they said they went with another applicant.  so i am now back to searching.  i mean at least i got to find out pretty quickly.  oh wells......

but now this means i still have long beach.  so im hoping they call me this week cuz they said in order to sub i would ahve to come in and fill out some paperwork and what not.  so hopefully i can start doing that.  i guess its good i have something to fall back on.  oh wells...im sure long beach pays more anyways.  haha. 

but at least i still have the og.  i mean i wish i wasnt tehre anymore but i still havea  job in this weird economy!  haha.  so yea.....still enjoying my overextended vacation.  cant complain about that i guess.  haha

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